Sometimes I think the reason I don’t write as much anymore is a lack of balance in my life activities. For one, we all work too much. We just do. When I have a day off, I catch up on cleaning or shopping, and then I am worn. I look for something more, but I can only commit to things sporadically. Then I get bored.
We blame people for being bored. Say it is because they are boring. I have never thought that is true. Boredom is a part of a larger search for something more. A disappointment with the current. A need. A seeker is not dull. A seeker wants to escape. Otherwise, boredom would not be a problem.
I am bored. I also need guidance. No one understands that. They think if you’re smart you don’t need guidance. That attitude is how I ended up not reaching my potential. I still have time, but I can’t do it alone.